Thursday, February 16, 2012

I won't give up

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When I first listened to this amazing song, I thought of my "forever love", which was with my ex-wife. I remember the very second I met her. The way she awkwardly laughed at my jokes and the way her green eyes were focused only on me. I can honestly say I knew from the very moment I met her, that I would marry her. Forever love, is the type of love that blinds you and makes all other aspects of life obsolete. It makes waking up, worth it. It can make you crazy with rage, yet burn with passion. Not many people get to experience "forever love", and even fewer get to grow old with it. But I'm not sad about getting divorced. Yes, I was sad, very sad; but it has brought exactly where I'm suppose to be.

In the song it says:
"Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up"

How true is that? So I didn't stay married to my "forever love". So what? I know that I'm worth it. I'm worth my own life, my life of happiness. I'm worth making a difference. I worth my education. I'm worth my friends. I'm worth learning who I am in the process. I'm worth my mistakes. I'm worth risking my "forever love", because I will, simply, not give up.

I know I will never have another relationship like I did with my ex-wife. For starters, I date men now, but more importantly, I was young and blind. I didn't think things like cheating and lying would ever be obstacles, but they are. I think the most important thing is that I'm not bitter anymore. I'm ready to love again. It's taken a long time and A LOT of mistakes, but here I am, universe. Like the Jason says, "I'm still looking up".

Lyrics:
Jason Mraz
I won't give up on us

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn

Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)

God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

1 comment:

  1. That opening paragraph is the best thing I've read in a long time anywhere! Thank you.

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